The most comforting thing and the most terrifying thing about being a Christian is that God is sovereign, and we will never know if we really believe that unless our faith is tested.
We found out yesterday that my husband has “Retinis Pigmentosis“, a degenerative eye disease that causes slow vision loss, beginning with the peripheral vision. Sometimes it causes total blindness, and sometimes the central vision is maintained while all peripheral vision is lost. The doctor seems to think he will maintain his central vision. (BTW, my hubby is only 32!)
And while there are several factors in the physical realm that provide some comfort (new treatments that could be available in the next 10 years, etc.), our only choice, really, is to believe that God is working ALL things for our good and His glory. Period. He can heal, or he can show forth His strength in our weakness, more tangibly than ever.
My flesh reaches out on its own and contemplates our future…how will he continue to provide for us when a large part of our income involves his making occasional long, overnight deliveries across several states?
But isn’t that just like us in every situation? That’s the awesome thing–I don’t have to know or figure out the future. It’s already written. Aaron’s vision problem was woven into the same frame that was “fearfully and wonderfully made”.
God’s not wringing His hands, and neither should we be!
We just keep walking.
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I am sorry to hear that about your husband and I can understand how the uncertainty could eat away at you.
The Sovereignty of God always brings peace though doesn’t it. I am so thankful that He is in control.
I will add your husband to my prayer list!
I’m sorry about your recent news, that must be incredibly upsetting. I’ve heard that oftentimes diagnoses are worse than the condition actually is, so I’m hoping that’s the case for your husband.
It’s so easy to forget, or question the sovereignty of God. Truly believing it is very freeing and comforting. I’ll pray for you all right now.
I’m not sure this will help, but we have a family friend who has this very same condition. He was diagnosed about 15 years ago and has lost *some* peripheral vision. He chose to stop driving this past year. Otherwise, he has been able to continue his activities (he is a teacher and is still teaching, for instance.) If your husband’s condition progresses at the rate of our friend’s, you will have time to make some decisions on jobs, etc.
I hope this helps! I am praying for you and your family.
About 8 years ago my husband (30 at the time) was told that he had cataracts forming and would need continuous surgeries throughout his life to remove them. We went on with life not doing anything about it at the time, he could still see fine. Fast Forward about 6 years, he went to an eye Dr for his new job and the cataracts were no where to be found.
Praise the Lord! I pray for healing for your husband!
Amen! God is absolutely sovereign! We will be praying for your hubby
Praying that God will keep both your hearts and minds in perfect peace as you keep your eyes, literally and figuratively, on him.
Your family is in my prayers.
Ashley
http://www.homesteadblogger.com/Jonash2004
Oh, Kelly,
I’m sorry to hear of this difficulty your husband and family are facing. I know that as I go through my cancer treatments, “but what about what might happen a few years down the road” can be what causes me the greatest fear. And you are so right, we’re not called to figure out how all of that will work out. Our Great God’s sovereignty is so much, well, sovereign than our human, finite minds. And He calls us to just trust Him and be faithful.
I will pray for your family as you support your husband, and will pray for his healing, as well.
In Christ,
Beth
stacyzwife@msn.com
Beth,
I have heard a recent update…how are you doing?
I am not sure how people who live without the comfort and trusting God can make it. When my first husband was dying, I knew I was in God’s hands, and yet it was hard to handle all the changes. However, know I was totally dependent on a Sovereign God brought a peace inside, even if the outside was in turmoil.
My 2nd husband and I just made a big decision that only God can get us through, but we felt this was His will. While it was not in sickness, it does mean a loss of income and a need to be totally dependent on that same God.
When he takes away one situation, he has another that will bring more into your life than you can imagine. He will use this for His glory!
Through our two bouts with homelessness, God has ALWAYS taken care of us. Always.
Through sickness, heartache… He is always there and always provides for us, love, comfort, necessities.
I am praying for you and yours, Kelly. That He will wrap His arms gently around you, your husband and your children. That your husband’s eyes will be healed. That you will all draw closer to the Lord in this time.
God’s blessings,
Mrs. Gunning