The most comforting thing and the most terrifying thing about being a Christian is that God is sovereign, and we will never know if we really believe that unless our faith is tested.
We found out yesterday that my husband has “Retinis Pigmentosis“, a degenerative eye disease that causes slow vision loss, beginning with the peripheral vision. Sometimes it causes total blindness, and sometimes the central vision is maintained while all peripheral vision is lost. The doctor seems to think he will maintain his central vision. (BTW, my hubby is only 32!)
And while there are several factors in the physical realm that provide some comfort (new treatments that could be available in the next 10 years, etc.), our only choice, really, is to believe that God is working ALL things for our good and His glory. Period. He can heal, or he can show forth His strength in our weakness, more tangibly than ever.
My flesh reaches out on its own and contemplates our future…how will he continue to provide for us when a large part of our income involves his driving out of state on a regular basis?
But isn’t that just like us in every situation? That’s the awesome thing–I don’t have to know or figure out the future. It’s already written. Aaron’s vision problem was woven into the same frame that was “fearfully and wonderfully made”.
God’s not wringing His hands, and neither should we be!
We just keep walking.
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The acceptance of the sovereignty of God is the only thing that brought me peace when we found out our baby would not live after birth.
Strangely enough it comforted me to realize that HE made my daughter the way she was, without functioning kidneys. He chose it. Then all there was to do was trust Him. Trust Him and Praise Him for knowing what we need more than we do. Allowing us to go through something we would plead, kick and scream to avoid for some reason, known only to Him. Not having to know why. Just knowing HIM, knowing He is faithful and loving and trustworthy.
“Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him;” Job 13:15